i used to blog about almost everything. not just because i have time, but probably i used to be blissfully happy(or probably just ignoring my problems), and i want to share and capture what i'm feeling at that moment.
but recently, i find it so much harder to just plainly talk about what's happening in my life. i realized that i have changed a lot. the naive but logical, and the independent but insecure girl has gone. i have become a realist and a pessimistic worrier, and more insecure than ever. call it maturity or life teachings or bullshit. i guess everybody have experiences in their lives that will really transform them emotionally into adults.
but i am still happy, i just worry on the side... sometimes. i am convincing myself not to expect, but just to hope. i wish God will just magically control me so i will do what's right, so everything will turn out fine. but life doesn't work that way. i hate free will.
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